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13th-Oct-2006 04:00 pm - Yes it's about...

If he were a color
he'd be a deep dark forest green
If he were a car, he'd be a long stretch limosine
with room for all humanity inside
cause he's so giving
and he is so wise
if he were a number
he'd be five
cuz he has such a brilliant mind
if he were an animal
he'd be an ass
cuz he's so stubborn sometimes :]

But if he were a song
he'd be a complicated melody
that complicated fellow he
I almost cannot sing it on key

If he were a building
he'd be a beautiful cathedral
cuz he's so traditionally spiritual
if he were a dance
he'd be complicated like the tango
exotic like a mango

But if he were a song
he'd be a complicated melody
that complicated fellow he
I almost cannot sing it on key
he means the world to me

He ain't the reason for the sun and the moon
He is just the reason for this here tune

Cause he means the world to me
said he means the world to me

Complicated Melody
that complicated fellow he
I almost cannot sing it on key

13th-Aug-2006 10:51 pm(no subject)

Maybe its the things they do without you that reveal how much you mean to them, when they know you aren't watching or perhaps when you've given up on them. But, unfortunately, life's not a movie where everyone sees our deepest, darkest moments played out like scenes with a great soundtrack and stunt doubles. We only have words to convey what we've done, felt, gone through and miss. But sometimes they fail and we don't have writers to fill in the blanks or make it moving. I'm speaking to me, you, her, him. We'd all like to hear out own monologues, the narrative, but no such movie excits of our own life except in our head. You can spend ours playing out a scene... death, love, life and loss but unfortunately nothing can bring that to life. No critics, no great reviews; just us and our innermost conciousness. But what makes us so empathetic to the movies we see in theaters? We are moved, we cry, laugh and wish we could share those moments with others on such a moving medium. Emotions are stuck, stuck because one can try and express their feelings but if you don't see it, you're not experiencing it and you lack the understanding. The silent calls for help, the breakdowns, the depression and restlessness; hidden beneath the facade we put up. Yes, we want to seem happy but what do you do when you are hurting so much that you can't? That you don't want to try? That you want that one person to see what you felt because you want them to understand. You can't record your own life the way you want. You have to count on words. But like I said, those always seem to fail us.


11th-Aug-2006 06:58 pm - LEt this be your sun..

Life is predetermined

God has written this play

we are mere actors in a scene

we are just performing what the script says

your scene may be short

but we cant change the play

we just read it

if its meant to be it will happen


A predetermined

course of events

considered as something beyond human power

We are helpless in the face of


people can be so beautiful...

13th-Jul-2006 10:47 am - Confession.
Karma totally sucks.
Yea..I was the one who ended up crying last night.

But I did do kareokee night! You will never guess what song I did!

I had a lot on my mind at 5 a.m. this morning. Idk..I have insomia? Si si no se..ay.

Black and White.


The last few days have been up's and downs for those of you who didn't know. We ended it officially for good on Sunday morning. Good things do come to an end. We tried to fix things...I guess last summer just had the biggest impact on us. I mean, who isn't going to remember falling in love? or spending every free minute with each other? Apparently we both haven't...

"I beg you to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselvs. Don't search for the answers,which could not be given to you now,because you would not be able to live them. The point is...to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then,someday far in the future you will gradually without even noticing it now the answers.. Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb you. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think only of the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to your heart.

26th-Oct-2005 08:18 am(no subject)
After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and changing a soul. You learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security. You learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises. You begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open,  You learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone else to bring you flowers. You learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong, you really do have worth. And you learn and you learn.. with every goodbye you learn.
23rd-Oct-2004 09:10 pm - Torn
i'm so sad right now i don't know what to do. it sucks i can't belive it i knew i shouldn't have belived it. i just need to stop getting my hopes up on something that's not going to happend.
1. Am I cute?:
2. Am I hot?:
3. Am I sweet?:
4. Am I crazy?:
5. Am I loveable?:
6. Am I funny?:
7. Am I annoying?:
8. Am I psycho?:
9. Am I daring?:
10. Am I a goody:
11. Am I sexy?:

12. Hug me?:
13. Miss me if I was gone?:
14. Listen to my problems?:
15. Hug me if I cried?:
16. Be a good friend?:
17. Ever go out with me?:
18. If you already have would you do it again?:
19. Kiss me?:
20. Let me sleep on your shoulder?:
21. Marry me if you could?:

22. When's my birthday?:
23. How tall am I?:
24. What school do I go to?:
25. Do I have any siblings --> names?? :
26. Who is my most current ex?:
27. Who is my best friend?:
28. Who am I crushing on/dating?:
29. Favorite animal?:
30. Favorite Color?:
31. Favorite TV show?:
32. Favorite song/songs?:
33. Favorite music group?:

34. Give me a new name, what would it be and why?:
35. Hook me up with someone (real), who would it be and why?:
36. Do one thing with me what would it be and why?:
37. Drop me one piece of advice, what would it be?:

38. What do you love about me?:
39. What do you hate about me?(seriously):
40. What is my best quality?:
41. If you could change one thing about me what would it be?:
42. What is your honest opinion of me?: .

fill this out to

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I lovable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you
3rd-Oct-2004 04:29 pm(no subject)
why is my love life so confusing? everything about it is. I don't know who and what i want and i'm talking to this one guy and he seems so awsome but i wonder if it would ever work out??? but then i still have ffeling for mario how can i not? he wrote the sweetest letter to me yesterday and he was a great boyfriend but honestly i do't thihnk he wants me anymore and if he doesn't that sucks!! damn it damn it damn it!!!! why is it like this??? i need to find my prince charming ( i got that from vanessa) but when will he come????

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23rd-Sep-2004 06:54 pm(no subject)
Hello everyone!! What's up?!? Me nada much just here listenning too music and chatting with some friends over the net. Sorry i haven't updated in awhile it's just that I get sooo lazy!!! Well anyways lets see i'm going to write an entry for yesterday and today. Yesterday's 1st was alot of fun lol j.k. I didn't go me and two of my best buddies went to Starbucks. THen my 2nd was ok we had a sub then for 3 mrs howell is acting like a bitch and so is mrs. crowell. Ok well today was i guess a bad day. I wasn't in the mood for anyones shit today. I felt like cra since my hair looked like shit and I've been going through all this shit at school. Like I mean I like Mario a lot and stuff but for some reason I'm starting to develop a small crush on Brandon. Like I don't know why. I mean from what I've heard he really isn't a good boyfriend but when I'm with him I love talk too him and he's so much fun. But I'm not going too say anything since I don't want too ruin mine and he's friendship and I have a small crush on ****. I mean were just friends and everything but I do n't know there is something about this person that I love but I don't think I would go out with them since I would probbly break there heart and I wouldn't dream of doing that.. Ohh I have a homecoming date it was like a last minute thing but I'm going with my buddy El Shawn and I got a really cute dress my mom bought it for me it's so PRETTY I just hope I look it that night lol. If you want too see a pic of it just look at my binder it's pink and black. So I already ordered he's garder and he's going too get me my mum but I think he got mad at me for some reaso I don't know why but it's too later we can't back out of this anymore. Well I got to go so I'll talk to you all later buh bye!!! CONGRATS ALIA ON getting SENIOR PRINCESS!!!!!!! I'm so HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!
15th-Sep-2004 05:27 pm(no subject)
Hello!!!!!! Well lets see.......today was an ok day. During 1st we took a test it was really easy so i' prob got a good grade on it. Then during 2nd we really didn't do anything we just learned about mechanicel energy and all this stuff. I love that class since ihave a lot of my friends in there. Well anyways i was late to my third since we had gone to mcdonalds for lunch. but we took a test and it was pretty easy. Then during 4th my teacher is a B**** so yeah we just had to do vocabulary and stuff like that. Well this week has gone by really fast and I can't wait till friday since I'm going to the game. I really don't like football going to the games are more of a social thing I guess you can say. But yeah I'm going with my two best friends and then my fav prima will prob be going too. Claribel you need to come to my house on Sat or something!!! I miss you lol. But anyways.... I have so much too say but don't feel like typing anymore. So I'll talk to you all later!!! Buh bye!!!!!!
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